Friday, October 27, 2017

Happy Halloween, Philistine: An American Classic Horror Story from the Turn of This New Century



phil·is·tine
/ˈfiləˌstēn/

noun

1.a person who is hostile or indifferent to culture and the arts,
 or who has no understanding of them:
"I am a complete philistine when it comes to paintings"

adjective

1.hostile or indifferent to culture and the arts:"a philistine government"

     

The opening of the century came and went and it appeared the winds of change had conspired against the entire continent. If you haven't already forgotten and moved on to the consoling video stream of the virtual presidency, where President Martin Sheen says all the things we always wished our presidents would say, there was that drab Wednesday in American history, Dec. 13, 2000, when there was a very real, certainly material, corrosively visceral version of what we like to call convergence: When the Supreme Court cast its votes for Dubya, and all were spared the trouble of deciding for democracy. Then convergent metamedia, now pouring through the anticipated cataclysm of the future like a bad - but well publicized - rendered-in-3D dream, amped up the volume and the Twin Towers came tumbling down.

The whole constipated poop shoot of the dog-eared promise of the New World jammed into the screw-tight orifice of the next century and instilled an overwhelming dreadgeist of collective disappointment and paranoia. Every human soul within earshot of any report or anguished groan over what the U.S. Supreme Court had failed to do: that is, be Supreme, and all voters, counted and uncounted, felt that gong of doom from the very bowels of hell. But with uncanny prescience, that act only served as a foreshadowing event, for in George W. Bush America had hired its international executioner. 

"It Can't Happen Here," apparently, can. That much was obvious. Spreading like a contagion of fire across the networked landscape of the globe via talk shows, television news updates and e-mail flame war preventing even the most modest real estate developer's home page to upload in a slow a sludge ball of bad bandwidth as grief overdosed every pedestrian on Main Street, the deep truth always expected, but never fully understood, pierced the broken heart and fogged the mind's eye of anyone able to read, think, love, hate and vote. 

But McDaniel was more interested in the solar flares causing freakish storms, suggesting, at least to him, that there might be some relationship between the chaos on earth and the blaze of heaven. Certainly, between the failures of democracy and the maximized 13-year-pulse of solar storm cycles, the each new turn took on a new tragi-cosmic character. 

"The mysteries of mankind are revealing themselves, by wearing a circus animals collection of mythic costumes, in a wide variety shapes, sizes and colors," he says, imitating his artistic hero with an English accent, William Blake. 

"Goplacia," a verb-like state taken from Thomas More’s classic, Utopia, "became my name," he was often want to say when he was most destitute, transitory and, strangely, happy. He returned to Massachusetts, again, to get (yet another) divorce, but also stick his read right back into the storm.

A terrible beauty was born. 


He took a job editing the night-shift in Salem, the weird hours shifting him into the furies as the foliage blazed into the post-Sept. 11 fall. Ranting to Web sites on the side, sending e-mail like lightning bolts to fight his own "War on Terror, feeling the vibe of the Salem hangman on Halloween, the following message was sent to one of his co-conspirators:





To: Rod Amis
Self-Published
Equal Opportunity
Webzine Editor
A.k.a The Fleet of the Damned
G21.net

From: William Blake in Cyberspace

"O lend me an ear while I call you a fool.
You were kissed by a witch one night in the wool."
- Jethro Tull, from "Witches Promise"

You scum-sucking dishwasher, you wise-ass carpenter (a worthy trade for a fisher of men, but hey, if the world was perfect, what would we complain about?), you hard-boiled cynic, you Oreo cookie brother with a heart of gold, oh so soft in the middle (I see you, though I’ve never met you), you perennial river-of-a-webzine dreamer, whatever the fuck you are today, I do take offense! You hurt and frustrated me in ways I’m barely able to explain.

I’m centered and aware, in a Gnostic way, since gnosis is to know. Not think, or hope or believe, but I have faith, I know. I have no choice. I’m sure you feel the same. I can tell you also know the signs are everywhere, if we only care to see. Magic is a witches’ trick, say some, but magic is only what the uninitiated call it. Same for science and technology. Oh, how we fear what we do not understand!

Oh, how they burn their witches here in Salem, Massachusetts! Oh yes, it’s very dangerous, for that matter, we are at the very real front of the very real war. Now we have to wash our hands after getting their mail. Now they have closed a courthouse and a post office in Salem, just because someone sent a letter to both that stated, "You are contaminated with anthrax. Have a nice day."

The new face of terrorism: Communication breakdown with a wicked pumpkin smile. Happy Halloween, indeed.

I tremble over a letter to a loved one. Write on the envelopes, "Please wash your hands after opening," but even if it’s the end of the world, they need to know. O man, mon Amis, how you offend me. But I needed it. Always did. Always will. As William Blake wrote, "the artist and oppressor are One."

Since this is true, then let me move on, let me spin you a web-of-a-tale. Get yourself a beer and spread the peanut butter thick. It’s a fine and fitting time for the harvester of souls, of Halloween, a fine time of year to go "boo."

Sure, I scare people. That’s actually the best of what I do. And I do it to myself, self-same, it’s true. This is a season of bounty for me, but it’s a lunatic’s boon, especially in late October, living so close to Salem, on a hill home near the mouth of the Ipswich River. Close to Salem, where it’s been overly reported: They burn their witches here. Not much has changed since 1692.

O God, how I need a cigarette. Get the jump on Osama. Get the jump on regret.

Let me light up. There. Let me not forget. Let me blow smoke out in a shaman’s prayer. Allow me please, a muse Amis, let me summon every electronic energy bolt of fire and brimstone (We both know: The Baphomet computer is the philosopher’s stone), first wrote in old-tech script from my poison dirty pen (found so serendipitously on the ground in the harvest time of fall). Allow me to go "boo" to you, as well as those who are not so faint of heart, anyone capable of hearing a strange a mystical tale that, detail to detail, is absolutely true … in this season of moon, it will keep its mojo moving, regardless of you.

~

We are on a romantic road and the digital dashboard indicator of a red-wine beaut’ of a 2000 Mercury Mountaineer sayeth, "96 miles to empty." The urban assault vehicle is here as a loan, a gift for just a day from the sister of my fellow traveler after her sibling departed for her wedding in Hawaii. I’m blissfully delighted at the arrival of such a pumpkin carriage. Totally surprised by the red-wine gleam and the company of a very, very tall blonde, who, of many other fine and sensual abilities, has translated Homer’s Odyssey in three different languages. She has come all of the way from the south side of Boston, about 40 miles, no less, to roam the harvest country with me at speeds both slow and fast. She has no idea what she is in for with me. Just another day in my current life in the fire leaf blazing morning glory of the North Shore. This is my romantic road. My quest, your open-heart attack arrest.

Obviously, loud tunes and gasoline gallons are required, since the maximum more of the foliage season is no time for being less; See it burn, matter turning to fire, turning to smoke, turning to cloud, the snow of winter, all to fall to the ground and begin again. The harvest time is a season to be full and wild and free. But don’t forget, in this botched and mortal coil-of-a-world, we must drive straight and thread the needle, and not for the time being leave all of my past control-freaked ladies alone. Or their ghosts. Ask not of golems. Just say no. Let the very particles of the sun charge the protective gothic gargoyles on my window sill, let the sun at dusk speak of lies and the friendly spirits, dragons, and sacred music. Let the gargoyles shiver in the very overwrought undulations of the sun, and the sun behind the sun. Even if the earth’s very vibrations shake, there is enough time to spend with a good, fair-haired witch, one free enough to brave my romantic road, a twisted, snaking string of a magical web of back roads heading to Route 101/West in New Hampshire, may oui! We are heading to where each and every license plate states, "Live free or die!" Ask not or reason why.

We are chasing ghosts of lost love. Or, at least, I am. Free wheeling nature souls, coyotes and jaguars, purring kittens behind the trees, sorcerers, sea devils, and that Beast that has returned. Nor the microbes we can’t see. That which was once gone, indeed! So bring your skull and Templar crossbones flag. This is no time to run. Bring your cross of silver as a talisman. Have courage, cowardly lion. Let your titanium heart roar. Fear nothing, nothing at all, son. Every day the devil doesn’t get us, well, that’s his mistake! Fear nothing and nothingness will run.

Fear not loss. Fear not the cops. Or the courts. Or loss, nor terror. Breathe free the air, not the fear and error in the poisoned wind. All that is folly now (you know this, of course). Fret not about state dependent on north/south routes, of woodsy back roads, swamps and thickets, thorny paths and even thornier people. Just drive Route 101, which begins (depending, sayeth Dylan, Bob, on your point of view-uuuu) on the far east end near Portsmouth, New Hampsheer, where great whalers once trimmed their sails and oars. Take a westerly route. But remember, old man, to the very end of the road toward the sun, and, into the night, we are really quite alone.

We take 133 West out of Ipswich, where the Anglican churches and Christian Science bookstores co-mingle with the remnants of the great Ipswich River seaport of long ago. It’s already past noon and the flock of cars are forming into an endless line of foliage-gaping lookiloos. As we skulk a threaded needle through this mechanic’s parade, the CD player sounds off the mood, the Tragically Hip, it is, sangin’, "The constellations reveal themselves one star at a time."

I take notes because I feel as if I’m on a portentous road (in fact, as it turned out, me and my companion would be forever shaken by its portents). But, O, how I lose time and miss out on all of the beauty with my eye on blank paper (and your’s on this screen), my heart firing the very Promethean fire of Zeus through my pen warmed up in hell. Such a sense of loss and anxiety and a premonition that the very scythe of death is making a big all comeback this year: I guess that’s what fall in New England is all about.

When you take 113, heading toward Andover, you are enveloped in the careening psychedelia of the season. As I write this now, I feel winter is coming. You can see it in each and every leaf that blows across the windshield. Tiny white churches, Odd Fellows and Rotary halls, all perched alone in sharply cut acres in the woods, a vintage World War II mobile artillery machine (a convertible, maybe .50 calibre), pretty typical, all of it, in this land of God and Cannon; all of this set against a blazing backdrop of red, yellow and browning fire orange trees. Shit, will I be glad when all of this glorious instruction on the unmerciful passing of beauty is done!
That is when I can be calm again.




But, it’s time to be vigilant and wired and world weary, because once you pass the Andover reservoir (which may or may not have been poisoned by anthrax-anthrax terrorists on a fly-by), you better get ready. That’s because you have to get back on 133 again, the Andover to Haverhill east/west road, which is to say: The Freemason maze, a technological terror running through the Merrimack River Valley (the pre-colonial natives called it "Mer O Wac"). Haverhill to Andover, Andover to Haverhill, past CMGI and Lucent Technologies, past software firms in small offices intertwined with dentists and barbers’ and beauticians’ storefronts. A key word, that: front.

A false front, no doubt, no maybe, may oui. The demon’s path is a copper wire of roads where the aged architecture of civilization, old as this country, old as the Crusades (which is older even), is a foundation still apparent in the great four-story Masonic Hall overlooking the Merrimack in Haverhill, in the obelisk spires that decorate the bridge crossing the river, in the Andover freemason lodge at the opposite end, but still, just off the road, almost touching it, in the very Eye of Horus that decorates the haircutter’s salon downtown.

O yes, mon Amis, the medium is the message: the quiet, all-seeing eye, our trillion-dollar-sponsored benevolent and supposedly sane security, our Public Safety Committee, our ubiquitous protector, our worldly, eye-in-the-sky overlord. Ah, how we do choke on the fumes of this everpresent background static, this electromagnetic energy. Even at the gas station, where there is a freemason compass signifier sticker on the window next to the credit card signs, it’s easy for those who haven’t lost sight of history to see. At the gas station, the Mark of the Beast didn’t actually mean that freemasons here get cheaper gas. I asked. It just means they own the place, said the woman who takes your credit card but prefers the ease of dollar bills behind the glass, said the woman who is restricted from irrational and impossible me, overly rational you.

They own the place, indeed!

When you log on to the freemason commuter maze with your metallic key, left is right, up is down, and U.S. 495 goes west when the sign says south. Not much different, this disorienting ghost in the machine, than the sense of dislocation created in casinos and shopping malls. The magician’s trick, O man behind the curtain, is to disorder our hearts with disinformation intended to keep us from being still long enough to even know who we are, or, where we came from: nature. All of it forces us to be so dependent upon the big cement swamp of man that we will have nothing left to do but desire, nothing left to do but shop, nothing left to do but drive to our homes and businesses and back again for our very survival.

Thank this pseudo god for TV!

O, mon Amis, now here is a warning for all of this Promethean potpourri: Get out while you can. Be not of this world. And please, O please, wash your hands. Best to get out of there, out of Metheun, Andover, and especially out of Lawrence, where the satanic mills are a thing once gone that’s now returned. Yes, indeed. Yes, indeed. A magician’s techno dance and trick, I say, best to get out of there, lickity split. Use your Bible, or, just use your wit.

So take 495 south to go west, moving past Jack Kerouac’s bluesy Lowell train depot, perhaps even his soul, and then point it north on Route 3 into New Hampshire … O muse Amis … News flash: This just in: Some discordian trickster has thrown a bag of an unknown white powder at the Haverhill Beef outlet, lodged in the Freemason Lodge, and Hazmat is now testing the substance for anthrax. It’s air that I’m breathing, even as I write and speak my heart, so we will see, we will see. Oh, in this air age of the overlord, fear is thy food and thine enemy.


Tuesday, October 17, 2017

At Me Too (And Sarah Palin)


With Little Feat honky tonk rock'n'blues
playing in the background,
trying to remember to forget
to forward-up the human noise,
and I take off my shoes
since I can't think unless my feet are free

And now that I apparently have the attention of some,
I will follow the first rule of journoism one-o-one
and make my case about what is, yes, serious tissue

In my life, I have been no angel, 
but my mother raised me to be a gentleman,
open doors for women, say please and thank you,
and have chosen to run rather than to hit
more often than is recommended by my witch doctors

However, during the course
of a long and strange life
regarding matters of the heart,
where luck has not been my lady,
I have been laughed at for wearing braces

And my doggy got run over.
And I can see us driving out into the desert
where we buried him, and the radio playing,
"King of the Road."

There's more. 
Do I share it?
Do I dare it?
Do I dare to show my hairline?
My bare head scalped?

I'm hollow, man.

Here's the news about why I am so alone: 
My first girlfriend broke up with me on the phone
while I was lying in bed in the hospital sick to my stomach
from detached retina surgery,
dreaming of many all-seeing eyes
looking at me at once,
later saying I was damaged goods

Hah, prophetic. I'm so pathetic.
These seer women and their ways

In later years I have been cheated on,
beaten on, body shamed, stalked, 
had my identity stolen,
had my genitals played
with like sex was some joke
to play a game of chicken with;
Chased out of the house
with a crowbar, like Tiger,
had my eyes nearly scratched out,
my glasses ripped off my face ...
and the joke to my boss was,
"You should see the other guy"

I kept silent, and in sadness, sighed
could barely admit a girl could do this
to my bruised black blue sky

Oh man, when I was taught not to hit a woman,
well, turning the other cheek sometimes it means
also running away as fast as I could ...
and I was quick, dead-set to get away good,
pursued by a car crashing into my truck's rear bumper
all of the way to the police station,
only to hear a false claim
that I was doing something wrong there,
when in fact the person of interest
parked behind me, thus giving the police officer
a good clue about what was really going on

And so I kept moving on
Moving through each room
with an eye on the escape route
a clever McGyver on the run

Usually, no matter what, the cops just assume it's you,
poor you, pick-pocketed, belittled, flamed by e-mail
by strangers on social media you, lied about in a court setting you,
this trial of the blood rising, never ending you,
chased out of a karaoke bar for ordering water you,
in a female snap-dragon incident this summer you,
face-slapped, punched, and generally, more recently,
treated like I was the Trumpy Dumpfy true,
his crotch-grabbing
 know nothin' bout science
or boundaries self, whew ...

But ladies (sorry for being so patronizing)
so asymmetrically politically incorrect,
all of us guys aren't like that
hideous example of our unfair sex

We just seem to be the most available targets right now
for your completely justified anger and disgust
Meanwhile, my heart is a hole, my body gone to rust

And if you for one moment think women
are incapable of the same kind of injustice
and two-way street violence that we men are, 
then may I finalize this rant
with the examples of Joan of Arc,
who I nonetheless admire,
Margaret Thatcher, no better than Hillary, see?
And the Chinese pirate Cheng I Sao,
who ruthlessly terrorized the entire nation of China
with such terrifying effectiveness and blood-thirsty cruelty,
the Chinese couldn't float a boat for a quarter-century

... You get the picture ...
I don't buy the scripture, sure,
but hell hath no fury like a woman scorned,
and you better not fool mother nature,
we've all been warned 

Not to mention numerous media characters
of evil spider women who plot all kinds of mayhem,
all very bad examples in our living rooms,
but who are loved nonetheless

Can I buy myself a broom for Christmas
so I can just sweep away this mess?

To the best of my recollection,
everything I have ever done was in self-defense
in this wild man's wilderness

But there is a sea-change now
and that's the lemonade in the making
of the current meadowlark's lemon

There is a more evolved species of male
who actually doesn't view each woman
they meet as a sex object, who listens
and is attentive and is more often than not
inspired by them ... So please pardon my fart
I am just a creature caught between two centuries
with no choice left but to create my achy breaky art

Not my choice. May we all move forward
and get right down to the fact that,
like all else in these Egregorian days,
the real monsters are pitting us against each other
so we burn our energies just this way,
so off they go, running their
 sick perverted greed-filled
hateful mass-murdering sex-traffic rackets
without notice or communal strength
to resist them ... Surely, this all could
 have been better said in a song
but I'm out of cigarettes for the nerves packets  

Please forgive me. Obviously, #Me Too,
I'm the PEE-T-S-Ed-City citizen poster child
of your sugar mountain
along the sweet and sour Hill Street blues
Bein' careful out there,
based on your pool cues

Sure, I've been a bastard
but my lovin' soul ain't alabaster
I'm a slow changing boy
into a man under the bad Master
with a sharp tongue, quick wit,
willing agent but I will run from it
since I'm weary of the fury,
your wanna have fun fits
your desire for nests and security
and your double-standard fists
as you check on my income
to see if my numbers fail to fi

Please, just dance with me once
I've grown old from this exile
and you don't even know
the half of it,
my rolling on the floor
like some settled-in textile
looking for the penthouse panty hose
dust bunnies in need
of Mona Lisa's lingering sad smile

Turn this song into a letter
let me seal it with a kiss
because I'm sure we can get along
and run into those Don Quixote dreams
riding that windmill Ferris wheel
at the bad circus of love
going home to share
the kind of equal rights bond
I'm always thinking of



Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Dak Prescott's Lament (For Duane Thomas)



“If the Super Bowl is the ultimate game, how come there is another one next year?” 

― Duane Thomas, former Dallas Cowboys running back, who took a vow of silence in 1971-'72 after calling General Manager Tex Schramm "sick, demented and dishonest," with much media uproar, then helped his team to win its first Super Bowl, and was promptly traded to the San Diego Chargers for basically nothing, and was out of football shortly thereafter. The statement above is what he said, softly, after the end of his silent vow in the locker room after Dallas beat the Miami Dolphins 24-3 in 1972. P.S. President Richard Nixon drew up a play for the Dolphins, a simplistic inside slant, which also got a lot of media attention that year. When the Dolphins actually ran it, the Doomsday Defense blew it up. Hunter S. Thompson wrote about this extensively, although he failed to make it to the actual game, apparently, for reasons fans of "The Duke" can easily guess.


I have two knees
and both are still intact
Jerry Jones will fire me unless
I fail to act
Getting tackled is inconvenient
it hurts with every impact
But I'm from Mississippi
and brothers still live in fear
Maybe I'll move on to another team
after my rookie contract year expires
Things is getting way too weird
to be anywhere around here
Yet there is a hero in me
all everyone can see
so after the bye week
I will consider and address
this fateful portico of the national complex
because only Dak Prescott knows
what Dak Prescott will do next
~
This poem is not the property
 of the National Football League
 and can be re-broadcast
 at any time in the form of a share.
 You don't need my express written permission,
 and I seriously doubt if anyone
 is going to turn it into a video
 to play with your friends
 at home,
 in prison,
 at the bar,
 or otherwise.
However,
if you do watch football
more than three hours
each week,
consult your physician
for fatigue,
anxiety,
suicidal thoughts,
or,
mysterious voices
in your heads
to buy a Ford truck,
drink excessively,
or to head-butt
your soon-to-be,
X-wife.
Please think
responsibly,
God bless
the NFL,
Amen,
women, too,
sorry,
because the lights are going off
since the party is over
since you can't even
tell it like it is,
and the Gipper is dead,
and Gifford lost his head,
and O.J. Simpson
keeps selling books
for every little thing
he says

~

And when I shook awake
from my Jerry Jones dream,
sucked out of his "glory hole,"
I heard a thousand screams,
of hanged men, 
in burning Mississippi. 

They were ghosts 
standing in a row 
at the forty-five yard line 
and they were calling to me, 
whispering, how long? How long? 

But then the whistle blew 
and into Roman warfare I flew 
wearing beautiful uniforms, 
one team grey, 
and another, 
battle-dressed in blue

Douglas McDaniel was a lifetime Dallas Cowboys fan since 1969. No more. Jerry Jones is simply evil more than good, and now I thank my brother, Scott, for making that call a long, long time ago.



P.P.S. "Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances."


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Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Damn the Torpedoes (For Tom Petty)


On the day of the (enter current sad bloody state of affairs here),
I watched the morning news to the point I couldn't take it anymore,
then watched a little more, then returned to the thing I was doing
to forget (enter the previous day's sad bloody state of affairs here).

Then, having escaped by hiding, we went out for lunch, ate sushi.
O sure, there were two moments when I had to leave the restaurant
because I couldn't stop saying "fucking Jesus" out loud,
in need of my indoor voice, so I restored order by smoking violently.

Then we went shopping, buying things at the pawn shop we couldn't afford.
Must be the commandment of the current commandant Lord is, "Be grateful! Shop!
Be thankful I did not kill you yesterday. Be thankful for the traffic lights
still working. For the buses still running. Be grateful for my Machiavellian cunning."

Next, while you were sending me teasing text messages about the death of Tom Petty,
I was skipping down the dead dry creek bed, avoiding your arrival, living my carnival,
shape-shifting into one white shirt, then orange, then black, then into my escape hatch,
only to find, when I returned, your crime of indifference was much worse than mine for caring.

That was followed by getting on a bicycle for the first time in two years, shaking my fears,
and only occasionally breaking down into tears to see the airplanes fly by the dock of the moon,
to marvel at dialed-in people doing dialed-in things,
moving quicksilver as roadies for the Heartbreakers.

By the time I got home, I was Okay with (enter current sad state of bloody affairs here).
Even managed to do that one thing I promised myself to do: Listen to "Damn the Torpedoes."
Then went to bed, slept like a baby, waking to make all of the mad silly jokes I could
after that last dance with Mary Jane, one more time to kill the pain, caused by ...

(Enter yesterday's sad bloody state of affairs here)